"As reality crumbles around me, you are all that keeps me pushing forward into the unknown."

Mistakes are just gems
in the treause chest of my life...
I constantly make them
and then I'm stabbed with a knife

 

A figurative blade
that cuts really deep
Now my life  begins to fade
and I begin to weep.

 

As I cry I ask,
"why am I here?
To acomplish a task?
Or to shed a tear?"

 

I am inevitably afraid,
scared to death of this blade...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Whenever I get depressed I tend to write sonnets... And if you didn't know, Ive been through a lot of fucking shit today.

I honestly wish I don't wake up from my sleep.  I just wish this whole thing was over.

So begins another stressful week. Let me start of by saying that I'm offically taking Vicki to prom now, not Lauren.  Yeah, I know Its kinda mean for asking her and then saying that I wanted to take someone else but she knew it was gonna happen.  anyways, back to the stress. 

 

I walked into 5th period chorus today just like any other day.  Little did I know that my entire week was gonna be fucked up.  Robert is sick.  And this means he can't be in Diviners.  So Pennington was scouting other people who he thought could do it.  Guess what guys, he picked little ol' me. Now I have less than three days to learn all my lines and my blocking.  Yeah, talk about suckola.  But the craziest thing was at practice today.  It was my first practice today, and it was a long practice.  We stayed at the theatre until about 8ish.  But now here comes the funniest part.  I know the basics of all my lines.  But most of the cast doesn't.  So in less than 10 hours I learnt all my lines faster than the cast who've had the scripts for about 2 two or more weeks have.  I made Kyle look like a total idiot cause he knows nearly none of his lines.  So that makes me kinda happy.  Anyways, the rents telling me to get off of the computer so i guess I'll keep you guys informed of how its going real soon.

Everyone come see the Diviners this Thursday, Friday, Saturday at 7, and Sunday at 2!!!!!!!!!

 

ok.  I heard this really amazing during the credits of a movie.  If you must know what movie,  The Girl Next Dor.  Yes Shannah , I was bored so I watched it again... but anyways, I found the name of the song and the name of the artist who sings it but I cant find where I can download it and/or buy it anywhere...  So if you could help me out I would be forever in debt to you.

 

The song is called

"One Fine Day"

by: Alastair Binks

I'm ok now.  So don't worry everyone.  I was justin a really depressed mood but everything is cool now...

The best laid schemes of Mice and Men oft go awry, And leave us nothing but grief and pain, For promised joy.

 

 

 

 

 

I hate my life.  Its full of nothing but shitty drama and me.  Nothing ever goes right and everytime I think it is, I'm completely wrong...  My life is soo fucking mediocre...